Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in roxychick17918's LiveJournal:

Thursday, May 3rd, 2007
11:10 pm	i am not the type of person to ask if everything is okay. i am not the type of person that doesnt care, but i am the type of person that thinks half of the shit people care about, doesnt need caring about. i dont want people to think that i am a bitch because im not like "aww hunny are you okay?? do you want anything" because seriously, i dont care about most stuff. ohh my god, someone yelled at me and i cant take this anymore because blah blah i have too much homework and im soo stressed. you know what, will it matter tomorrow. no. will it matter in a week that you got in a fight with someone. no. why? because they are still there and it will all be forgotten about in a day. people take things for granted and i do it too, i cant lie about that. but i do know what i have. i have the most amazing friends in the world. people that i KNOW are there for me no matter. people that will hold me through the moments when i cant stand. people that are thousands of miles away, but still near. petty things dont matter. its not about the way you look. its not about the way people look at you. get over the stupid stuff and start caring about something that matters. its always about what you dont have. i dont have enough friends, i dont have a car, i dont have money. but i try to think about the things i do have. its about the memories, the friends, family and the music. fuck everything else. fuck pain, and fuck death. fuck crying and tears. fuck people who dont care about you, or care about what you do. but love the people that do, and keep them close. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006
12:59 pm	best weekend everrrrr to start out, this past week has been extremely shitty. ive had sooo much shit to do. work was hectic. so friday comes around and im already stoked i get to see gym class that night. i had to work a double, which whatever. lindsey and i went to lunch in the lsc like always. we had some nice talks. she was telling me a story and i look over her shoulder and i saw this guy. he looked super familiar and i was like wtf. IT WAS GYM CLASS HEROES MAN. i freaked out. i called maddy asap. went outside to see travi sitting in the middle of our plaza, just chillin on the stump. we talked to him for a good 10 min. i love him. they played an acoustic show. THE MOST RANDOM THING OF MY LIFEEEE. ohhh my god. i was late to work, but obviously, gym class>work. it was amaaazing. we got free tickets because maddy lindsey conor and i were the only ones singing a long and dancing. i made 20 bucks off them. thank god. then that night the concert was soo much fun. patent pending came on first. they were osooo good. i have never heard of them before, but i bought their cd and then lost it. the next band was actually pretty stupid. hanger 18 or something. rap basically. cobra starship was amazing. gabe=total babe. i love him. i miss midown. then gym class heroes rocked like always. i love them. i got some really amazing videos and pictures. i decide i live for things like this. the only thing getting me though this week was GYM CLASSSSS. and then when i see them randomly at csu with like 20 people, that just added to an amazing time. we saw the most perfect sunset on the way to denver. times like that really make me think. that even though the world is rough and the weeks are long, certain moments in time make up for everything. you are surrounded by your best friends, singing along to an amazing band having the time of your life. thats what i live for. friends and music. last night we got real wasted in our dorm. it was soo much fun. it was just maddy liz and i. we went crazy. but i am sooo hung over and feel like shit. i just ate a piece of bread from spoons. SPOOOONS. hahaha. i love academys new song. it makes me miss this summer. warped tour x2. san fran. CHICAGO. grey hounds and running in the rain. parks and birthdays. denver and go carts and laser tag. this summer was amazing. im soo sad its over. i wish we could go back. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
5:42 pm	new life its been a long week. thursday we moved into the dorms. its been the most hectic day of my life i cant even explain it. but i have had sooo much fun and met so many people. im chillin in my dorm right now. my roommate is the shit. shes so cool and we have been getting along great. we started classes today. i went out to breakfast with caty before classes started. i had an 11am composition class. it was pretty sweet i guess, it was really small and whatever. there was the most annoying girl sitting next to me and i was like ohhh my god shut the fuck up. she wouldnt stop talking and looking at me. then lindsey, conor and i went to target. i got food and some sunglasses because i convienently misplaced mine. fuckers. then i had my chem class at 4. its really big. i already got dropped from my chem lab because apprently you have labs the first week, which i totally thought they didnt and was told by like a million other people that i wouldnt. whatever. i am redoing it on wednesday. i dont know what i am doing the rest of the night. probably reading for chem and i have a comp assignment. i start class tomorrow at 930 which sucks, but its better than 735 haha. i cant even start to get into how much fun ive been having. i have met more people than i can even know. i love it up here, its so pretty and i love the mountains so close. i have good expectations for this year. i think its going to be amazing and i cant even wait to get it started. Current Music: pepper (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
1:10 am	poem... kinda its more than just tears its more than a feeling in the back of your head its more than loneliness its more than being scared its way more. its sobs in the middle of the nights its hyperventilating because you cant catch your breath its curling up and crying like a baby its crying for the only person who wont come back its the ever present feeling its the thought on your mind 24/7 its what keeps you up at night its what rocks your world its having more than an emptiness its having a huge void that nothing helps. nothing. its being isolated,consumed by your own thoughts its alone, its permanent its the voice saying you will never see her again its the fact that you wont. its living the rest of your life without her its trying to figure out how to grow up without her. its the death of the one person that will ever mean something to you its the death of your hero, your mentor and your best friend its the death of your carefree self its the death of my mother. (Comment on this)